Im sorry im here all the time being negative but things are still bad for me .
Im so depressed I barely function , i barely take care of myself . i can't live like this . some days i strongly feel like taking my own life .
How can things get better when their this bad ?
Where do i find the strength to fight this?
How do i find motivation and energy ?

Im so lost . im so alone . i want to cry so badly but tears don't come out .

Im ashamed to be me , someone who is nothing with no purpose in life

Things have been really bad for 5 years with no improvement . is it too late for me ?