I'm sorry things are so hard right now - are you or can you get any kind of councilling to help you deal with your negative feelings. I found therapy helped me tremendously. I see from your counter that you haven't cut in 6 days. That's awesome and shows you have willpower.

Re needing a job. I know job hunting is hard and really hard on the ego. I've been trying to find a job since last September and just keep getting rejected. And I'm a qualified accountant. You just have to keep plugging away.

Have you thought about career councilling / vocational testing. At least in Canada it's free through a lot of social service agencies. They help you figure out what you'd like to do / be good at, and then help you find out the qualifications needed to get that job. They can also help with interview techniques and writing resumes. A friend of mine in AA is working with a job placement agency now, and she says it's been very helpful. Just a thought.

Hang in there.

--splitimage