I failed to take Vyvanse at 6am and wake up at 7am this morning. Instead I took a vyvanse at noon and woke up at 1pm. That was time for studying wasted.

Hopefully I can study at work when my coworkers leave but I'll be paranoid that I shouldn't be doing that. I'm supposed to just sit around and answer radio calls when I'm finished my work and this is my second last day of work anyways.

Then I'll be unemployed for a while and will study for the next 3 weeks. I'm going to see what other courses I can take for next semester. I might take two courses instead of one and just not work. I get 1685 a month and pay 700 for rent, 150 for my condo fee and 120 for my phone bill so my mom withdraws 1000 from my account every month. I save 685 dollars a month without work instead of the extra 800 from working two days a week. 150-200 dollars I'll pay for adderall so I'll have like 500 dollars to live off of if I don't work. I'll quit smoking because I smoke like half a pack a day and that's expensive. I'm waiting for my tobacco flavoured e-juice for my vape. I might just buy the 50mg e-juices so I can take a few hits and the craving is gone and be done with it. Cheaper than buying 50 dollar 150mg nicotine spray bottles that I use up in less than a week. That's like 200-300 dollars a month which is a waste. That's slightly more expensive than smoking cigarettes.

I'll have to pay like 1000 dollars for my next courses though which is money that I saved up.

I think things are going ok in that regard. I'll be stressed out as hell soon but I can take the stress without going psychotic as long as I take my injection and seroquel and have benzos for rare panic attacks.

So it's good.. these are the things I'm thinking about right now.. the stuff that's on my mind.. which seems really bland but I'm comfortable.. just surviving..