Early morning update. Today I am going to my sisters to celebrate my nephews 13th Birthday. It will be a low key affair. He has autism and hates large crowds. Lately I have been reducing my nightly Seroquel. I was down to 12.5mg but last night I couldn't sleep so I went back up to 25mg. I hate this drug and want off it. Even at these low doses (I used to be on 75mg) I have gained weight. Well f*** that. I want off.

On another topic. I freak out when people walk past my front door which is a sliding door and make a shadow moving across the curtains. I live in a block of flats so this happens often. I have to deal with it but I sometimes get paranoid. I breathe and remind myself I am safe.