I hit 18 months. I'd feel weird telling you though. I think I might have mentioned a year to you?

I suppose this also means it's been 18 months since I joined the lab, since my PI took a chance on me when he made the offer. You never saw me anxious 24/7, terrified I'd lose everything if I couldn't find a lab. I already had that security and a place I belonged when you met me.

I never really talked to you about it much, so it feels like it's not part of our work; I appreciate that you've respected that I don't want or need you involved.

But maybe I'd like a bit of pride? It's something you've kind of gotten to take for granted I guess.
My PI knows though. I have a new keychain (he does NA, and apparently they have keychains instead of chips?). And I think for this that's what matters to me. In my mind this was between me and him from the beginning, long before he had any idea I'd ever even had a problem.
Maybe that's a good thing. I have parts of my recovery that are completely independent of you. Even when you "abandoned" me and I was sabotaging every other aspect of my recovery, I didn't even once consider drinking.

Maybe I won't mention it to you.