I'm so unhappy. I have enough money, a sweet dog and i'm not in any physical pain so i don't know why. Certainly, i am bored. I tried to address this by taking up piano but it's not working out because it's too frustrating. I don't have the energy for most activities. I tried to go out to a mall today and i turned back on the bus on the way there i was so tired. I'm not optimistic enough for a meetup.

My meds help but they also make me tired and fat. Therapy just makes me feel worse. I'm only up for about six or eight hours a day. The rest of the time i'm just laying around. I can't stand reading, watching TV or listening to music. All i can bear to do is loll on the sofa. I've tried exercise. It just made me more tired. I'm not interested in dating. I'm not up during the times my old mental health drop-in is open. I've failed miserably at taking general interest courses -- everything from creative writing to belly-dancing. I'm done with knitting. I don't have the room for quilting or sewing. I can't get myself to draw. I've tried language-learning apps but it just seems pointless. I have nothing to say in English; what am i going to say in French? Who am i going to say it to? I'm sick of Scrabble and haven't gone to club in months or played online.


I see my doctor on Wednesday. I don't know what to tell him.

What can i do to feel happier?