I have been keeping an unhealthy secret for as long as I can remember.

I have a deep rooted severe fear of talking about my true feelings for fear of being punished for it.
In the past, I have gotten in trouble for talking about my feelings before; and it drove me to start stuffing my feelings ever since.
I don't have any support in my area, and I need help finding it.
I could also use some support here too please.