I know im often overthinking, overanalyzing and overly introspective but thats why im writing about it here, so that i get things out of my head and i leave them behind as much as possible.

today was better than yesterday. i slept less but i got to watch more of my (real) fav tv series with my cat with me. i had lunch and im going to have dinner with my parents and they seem in a better mood than yesterday too.

i took a nice long shower and i still didnt get to eat much junk but i went a bought my fav chocolate for next week when i went to get my meds.

im thinking about telling my mom theres this coworker i like at work (i even told my friend on friday night when we met for dinner - and she opened up about some of her problems too and even cried a little and i was feeling so bad for her i offered to hug her), but i dont want to give my mom false hopes that im going to have a normal life (cause i wont anyway). so if anything happens i'll tell her but until then i'll keep it for myself. i know maybe she'd like for us to share positive things like these but as i said, i dont want her to get disappointed if things go wrong and i also dont want having to admit to her yet another failure. it would double hurt.

tomorrow my work and my routine will be back. im not as displeased as last sunday night. i guess i did well spending the weekend as i did. too bad i wont be able to do it next week because i'll have the course on sat (but hopefully it will be as interesting as last time so that it will be worth it). but after week 7 and week 8 i'll have a few breaks (holidays) and i hope it will help me not feeling so tired and fatigued with work. i'll also have a meeting with my T, my supervisors and humane resources this wed. but i think it will only be a waste of time. i have nothing to tell them anyway….