Happy birthday tecomsin!!

I’ve been doing well. Had a great birthday. Yesterday I finally got to see my brother and sister in law and niece for the first time since January. I was salty at them for awhile because they cancelled on me the last time I was supposed to hang out with them and amidst my “let’s drop down to five mgs haldol” paranoia I thought he had lied to me about the reason. I still am not sure but I don’t suppose it matters anymore. We had a great time. I left about 8:30 when they started to get messy drunk because things started to spiral so I wanted to get out of there before any fights started.

I had a dream a couple of days ago about being a teacher and going back to school to finish my masters and I’m reLly thinking about it. If I stayed as a teacher assistant I wouldn’t be too stressed out at work to get my schoolwork done. I already have three classes under my belt. The only thing is I would have to contact the state and see if I can get my provisional certification back since I lost it for not finishing the program again. And I would have to do student teaching which would mean I wouldn’t be able to work a normal day job for a semester. I also never withdrew from the one class because I was too depressed to handle anything involving school so there a big fat F on my transcript. I’m not sure if I could get that erased if i got records from the IOP I was in at the time proving I was disabled when I took the class.

So many things to think about. But I desperately want my masters, even if I never teach with it again. I just want it. I want to prove that I can. I’m not entirely sure that I can but I want to give it a shot.

Ah well. I’ll keep thinking about it.