Dear T,

Lens inward or lens outward? I think I've benefitted much from looking inward these past few years, making better choices about what and how and who I spend my time and energy with, how what I do misses the mark from what I'm going for. I understand myself with a lot more complexity now and cut myself far more slack than I used to. I never thought it might be progress to not punish myself or feel negative about making mistakes. Perhaps it has been this that has encouraged me to learn more and take risks with work that I might not have done otherwise. This new work project makes that clear. But now it is time to turn the lens outward, to look at the world, and I'm not that thrilled with what I see. Not going to pretend otherwise. How to live with what I see and the limited ability I have to make the world a better place? The enormity of the beast against the tools I have, it is not inspiring. What I'm looking for is inspiration, with a capital I.