Sorry if I didn't pick up on your sarcasm.

None of us were diagnosing you. Just trying to say that we could start thinking about someone more than we like for a variety of reasons. In my case, I think I did this because of a type of OCD. Not saying you are OCD only that I have a personal experience with second guessing and thinking about other people to an extreme degree. I was trying to make you feel better. Sorry it didn't help.