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Originally Posted by Monkey1111
Sometimes, I black out while sober, and I sometimes find cuts on my arm when this happens. I don't cut myself (that I know of), yet somehow I'm finding these marks on myself. I also occasionally find myself in places and have no idea how I got there. The other day, I walked across town apparently, and I have no conscious memory of it.
This sort of thing happens every few months on average. It'll happen, and I think I'm going to bring it up to my psychiatrist or therapist, but then I forget. Because it's so infrequent.
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We cant tell you what is going on in you and whether you have DID or not. Only your own treatment providers off the computer can do that.
what I can tell you is that DID is not the kind of mental disorder where just one day out of the blue problems happen,
its a problem that a person has their whole life time since before the age of 5.
Its a disorder that is listed in the dissociative disorders category which means the problems are connected to having dissociation symptoms besides switching into alters and memory/ time loss (your word black outs)
also there is diagnostic criteria that states the problems can not be because of alcohol and black outs.
heres one way a friend figured out whether her problems were dissociative or not. she kept what she called an "incident report" she documented when it was happening and any "other accompanying symptoms" then she looked back on her lifetime by getting copies of her school files (school files are public records anyone can contact the schools they attended and ask for a copy of their files that the teachers, school nurse, school psychologist and so on kept on them) her school records showed no abnormalities in those once a year visits to the psychologist, no documentations of triggers and abnormal thoughts/ behaviors or black outs during pre school, elementary and high school, no documentations to the school needing the parents to contact a mental health treatment provider for things like ending up in the wrong places or being afraid or triggered during school.... the same with all her doctors through out her life time she contacted them and obtained copies of her medical records, none had any documentations to dissociative problems or other self injury or black outs...
her "incident report" also showed that the problem was residual side effects from her drinking and that her black outs were a normal problem that all drinkers of alcohol at some point in their lives experiences. the body can only take so much of alcohol before it starts storing it in the body cells and affects the brain functions.
my suggestion if this continues to bother you, contact your treatment providers who can tell you the difference between dissociative time loss/ dissociative memory lose and alcohol black outs.