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Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky
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Thanks for your support! Yah, i am in out patient right now. I see a therapist weekly and a dietitian every other week. I am just in a "funk" as my dietition says. I am just going through the motions and kind of half assing it. I know that its not good, but I am so scared and do not have any motivation. When I first went started treatment a almost 2 years ago I wanted to get better so I could go to state in highschool swimming my seinor year. But halfway through the season I got a stress fracture on the head of my femur and had to stop swimming for the rest of the season and never did make it to state. So now I dont see any reason to continue challenging myself in recovery. But I can feel myself wanting to relapse and I feel like I need to loose weight again. But I know my mother will pull me out of college if I do. I have told my therapist about how I feel, kind of. But I am scared to admit the full extent of it in fear of being forced into a higher level of care.