I worry that my therapist will get sick of me - like Echoes, yeah.

Therapy will end one day. One day I won't see him anymore.

I grieve for that time already.

But maybe I'm less afraid of that than I am afraid that he will emotionally withdraw from me while he is still around. Or that he will emotionally withdraw from me and kick me out because he doesn't WANT to see me anymore (and not because he is moving countries or whatever).

I don't ask him whether he will leave me... But I have told him that I'm afraid that he will. He knows I am. He doesn't tell me he will never leave (I think I'd have a raging tantrum if he lied to me so). But he does reassure me about certain points. That we will be having a session in a few days. Or that we will be having a session in a few months. Or that we will be having a session next year. He reassures me that he isn't getting sick of me. He reassures me that he isn't going to terminate me in the forseeable future.

We really have been getting on well lately. Connecting. Emotionally... I guess it is emotional withdrawal / abandonment that I'm most afraid of. That he will withdraw from me and I'll be all alone (like I was when my Dad left)