(((Scott))) No, it doesn't make sense, but I know it does to you because that's the way you are thinking right now. That's why CBT could help you. You must counter those negative thoughts, even if you begin with only realizing the thought and that it's "just" a thought that you might need to change.

It's a process. Usually someone who needs to do this has a long habit of negative thinking. (Often caused by others constantly putting them down and creating the pattern of not being good enough no matter what.)

I like the list of 10 common cognitive distortions because it gives a good place to begin. (They're sticky posted.)
Take one and work with it, and know that you are beginning to heal.

Your T can help you immensely with these. (Just agree to not stay angry at them when they show you errant thinking.)

It's worth the effort. You are worth the effort.