I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Fuzzybear! I don't follow the news much as well. They're too triggering for me. I completely understand what you mean and how you feel! Here's some safe, warm hugs for you: Please take good care of yourself and stay safe You know you're loved here! We all care about you here! We all love you here! Feel free to vent and write here as much as you need and want! You know we won't judge you! Please don't give up hope! Try to hang on as much as you can! I promise you that I won't judge you! Sending many hugs to you, Fuzzybear!