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Old Apr 08, 2019, 10:36 PM
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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight View Post
Thanks, this makes sense. And actually, I got the word "void" from ex-MC. At one point in session, he turned to me and said, "Do you ever feel like there's just this void inside you that no one can fill?" And I thought for a minute, then said "Yes." At the time, he said he couldn't fill it, H couldn't feel it, that no person could fill it. That he and ex-T (current T at time) could help me with it, but it's ultimately up to me to fill. Yet at times, it felt like he did try to fill it. And would say stuff about how working through the transference for him could help rewrite past stories from childhood.
Yikes, it seems somehow more alarming to me that he recognized how deep your yearning was yet he was still so careless.

Was it scary to hear that no person can completely fill the void or take it away somehow? Seems like it would be.

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That's actually something we talked about in session today, how it was like he sold me on this thing that working through transference could do. So I felt like if I kept working with him, then I would get that result. And in terminating, it was like I lost my chance for that. In a way...I guess it's almost like he was some scam artist trying to sell me on a miracle cure. (These are my words.) T doesn't seem to think that "working through transference" in that way really works, or at least he doesn't understand how it does.
"Scam artist" seems like a fair way to describe ex-MC's occupation based on the service he provided and the service he claimed he was capable of providing.
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