Perfect pitch has nothing to do with singing. It means you can hear a note or any sound and determine the pitch/frequency without any reference. Being around people like that make me feel stupid and I'm tired of always being around people that make me feel stupid, worthless, and inept. How would someone I always feel stupid around be a good partner? I can't imagine you would understand because you're not a musician, but it's really humiliating to not be able to play by ear very well and be with someone with perfect pitch who can play everything by ear perfectly. It makes me look like a bad musician.

And I always have to fight for attention. That's just how it is. I'm just not loud enough. I don't yell over people enough. I try to be courteous and conscientious and not barrel over people all the time, but then you just get ignored. I would just hope if I were to date again that my SO would give me attention and would want to spend time with me. That if we went out in a group that I would actually feel included. That they wouldn't just go talk to a random stranger at the bar for an hour while we're on a date. It's just like I wouldn't date someone who was super close to their family either...I want to actually be a priority for once, not someone unimportant compared to all the other people and animals in their life. I also wouldn't want to be judged about not being close to my family (maybe there's a good reason?). But with the pet thing, I just want a better chance next time. He has two cats. I couldn't compete against one cat, let alone two.