Dear T,

There is something about the structure of our sessions that isn't working for me. I think that every week just works better for me, but that's not going to be possible since I've been traveling every other week since Jan, and will until the end of June. Nor do I want to go to an every other week schedule again, because my travel will throw that off and you don't always have an open time in the week otherwise. Stop taking so many clients, or get rid of them faster, or agree to see me at your super secret times you reserve for clients you like better than me. I don't like the insecurity of having to cancel a session because I'm out of town and then I can't see you when I need to. Of course this would all work better probably if I would actually discuss it with you rather than plotting inside my own head, trying to game what would work for me. After all these years, this might be my goofiest attempt to get what I need indirectly, when I know so for sure that you'd give me anything you possibly could, if I only asked. It's the "if" part I'm having trouble with, my 2 year old self who wants to do it "by self." Unfortunately there are no things that involve the cooperation and connection with other people that work this way. And whoever thinks intellectual awareness of information assists a person in making reasonable options is nuts.