I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, rdgrad15! I completely understand what you mean! I completely agree with what WishfulThinker66 has alreasy wisely said better than I ever could! Perhaps the best way is to just look to what others are doing and trying to imitate them! I'm not really sure about it though. I believe experience is fundamental when it comes to socializing! The more you try to socialize, the better you'll become, I suppose. I know it's not easy! I understand what you mean! I think it's important to at least try as much as we can and to give it our best shot! That's all we can do after all and it's ALWAYS more than enough! Just remember to take all the time you need! Just take it one step at the time! Just take baby steps! Remember that there's no need to hurry! Don't worry about making more threads about the same topic! Feel free to vent and write here as much as you need and want! That's what this forum is for after all! We all care about you here! We all love you here! You know we'll NEVER judge you! I promise you that! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! Sending many hugs to you, rdgrad15