Thank you so much for your inspiring posts, Rose76! You're helping out A LOT more people than you believe simply by writing all of your wise, wonderful posts! I agree with what all the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could! You've been given lots of great, kind, useful, wise, wonderful advice on this thread! I'd suggest to follow it as much as you can if you need it and if you want to! Most importantly, PLEASE DON'T BE AFRAID TO ASK FOR HELP! We all need someone to help us when we need it and there's ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG wiht that! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! Please keep us updated as much as you can and want and take GREAT care of yourself, ok? You deserve it after EVERYTHING you've been through! Take your time to rest, take good care of yourself and your own home and meet up with other people you like! We all care about you here! We all love you here! Feel free to vent and to write as much as you need and want! You know we won't judge you! I promise you that! Thank you so much for sharing your experiences! You're helping out A LOT more people than you think you are just by writing all of your experiences down, including me! Thank you SO MUCH for that! You're a STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! Sending many hugs to you, Rose76!