So yesterday and today 2 people have hurt me with their remarks about my depression. So a family member, who I asked for help, told me that when I move from where I live now I have to work because I've been here 5 years without working. Suggesting that I'm lazy but when the reality is that I've been battling depression as I tried to find a job (which I had 0 luck). This person always called me lazy cause I spent all day sleeping and not doing what they wanted me to do. But the reality was that I was deeply depressed and very anxious which prevented me from doing stuff. That was last night and it put me in such a bad mood. I love this person but they don't put any effort into looking what is depression and anxiety to try and understand me a little bit at least.

Second person (that was today). This person told me once that they had a master's in psychology and worked as a social worker for a long time. So they went to see me about selling my car to some guy. So as we were talking to this guy you could see from space that I was in a bad mood, I wasn't smiling, I have dark circles under my eyes, I basically look like hell. So this guy told us that he wanted to come to see the car today and this person told me to clean the car inside and I told this person "I'm tired!". This person (the "psychologist"), yelled "TIRED OF WHAT!?"
I got really upset and didn't tell them anything and proceeded to clean the car. I rejected their help cause I was so angry.

So I've been feeling like hell. I am depressed. I feel drained. I just want to cry. These people who are so close to me can't see that I'm depressed. It's so obvious that I'm depressed. You can see just by looking at me once. The way I look, talk and move tells you everything. I fee like giving up but I can't, so I won't. But damn it is difficult! And the person I had to confide in passed away. I feel lost.