I've also wondered why so many of my relationships are so strange, romantic and platonic. I've never thought it was related to where I lived and suspect it has more to do with the chaotic household I grew up in. I don't feel like I fit in with 'normal' people. I don't know how to act and they can tell that I'm not one of them. I don't have those kinds of problems with other weirdos

That's so wild that it was your 'normal' husband that got to you!