T, thanks for replying even though your reply doesn’t feel right. I think I am just misreading it because I wanted a different answer. Something shifted when you were away for a week. The hug last session sent the emotions right over the top. I’m sad I don’t know how to connect with you and how to be present with you. I am sad and frustrated I have to wait so long between chances to try again. I bounce from dissociative to hyper vigilant without any rest in between. I want to be in that in between space, that balance spot. I am feeling let down by your reply and angry at myself for feeling let down... but it is all a big circle.