the first time I was hospitalised I had gone to the ER convinced I was having a heart attack. I had come very close to hurting myself and panicked at the realisation how close I had come. I was really agitated and really down on myself. A resident spent 15 min asking me questions. I was diagnosed BPD and lived with that label for the next six months until I was hospitalised again being absolutely heavily manic. I never felt the BPD was right. The description didn't fit and I felt a little upset with it. Pardon the expression but it seemed crazy. On the other hand the diagnosis of Bipolar seems bang on. When I was given it, it was as though I was finally coming home. It made absolute sense.

Those who knew about the BPD diagnosis seemed standoffish and treated me with kid gloves. Yet with the BP diagnosis people are a lot more relaxed around me.