I've just always felt inferior, despite moderate academic, athletic, and professional success. I just can't get to the root of why or how to let it all go. I recently attended my first Vipassana sit and it shed some clarity on 'how things really are' but I've still got this inner need to accomplish things... it is lawn season... I can research the stock market for days on end... ahhh the cravings. Meditation helps, but it takes too much time and leaves me almost too calm - I stop socializing altogether and get depressed.

Does anyone have any resources to share? The idea of destroying the ego is nice, but that is the most egoic pursuit one could ever undertake, isn't it?

This TED Talk by Polly Young-Eisendrath is good if you share these feelings:

TEDx Middlebury 2013: Getting free of Self-Importance is the Key to Happiness