I feel like my life could turn for the best or for the worst. I'm stuck in the middle right now where everything is just a potential good or bad place.

It's cold and raining. I love rain.

Right now I feel like doing this essay is a chore. I don't want to do it. I'm not taking any courses this summer. I'm going to work for 4 months for an extra 3600 dollars. Then do courses in September and in the winter.

So yeah that's where my summer is going. I want to work 2 days a week so I'll have 5 days a week to heal because I'm really in need of spiritual healing. My mind feels like it is complete trash and so is my life. I'll have the summer to use free time to my advantage to grow as a person stress free. Because I'm in a lot of stress and everything feels disturbing to me, screwed up and weird.

Well at least I wrote this about my thoughts but it was hard..

Edit: I feel like I'm in a dark place that only I can overcome with my mind