The last few days have been rather tough but I can blame it on hormones plus stressors like my car breaking down. Honestly mostly hormones as I felt happy despite the car situation when it happened. I felt super chipper and in love with life on Friday when I saw my therapist, by Saturday everything was making me anxious and irritable and it's been just rough since then. Had acupuncture yesterday and things are going a little bit better today. I seriously just don't understand my brain sometimes. I keep going back and forth and being indecisive about trying medication again. I am not against it, but since I surprised my psychiatrist with my med reactions it makes me anxious that will be a pattern and could happen again. Same with the birth control to level out my moods. I have the Rx filled, but I am not super keen on trying for three months to see if it works out. My doctor basically said I would have to try it that long even if I felt worse although I would stop it sooner if I had dangerous thoughts. I am too scared because my insight is not good in these kinds of states so I might not even realize I needed to stop it.

In better news a friend is visiting from out of town this weekend. I have not seen her in a long time and am looking forward to it. I am also going to do zumba with another friend tomorrow night so staying active. Hope everyone has a great night and day tomorrow.