ok, how do I even talk about this splitting that is going on, you know about, I know about it - I can't seem to reconcile it and I'm too embarrassed that it has/is happening.

Why do I have to be so messed up at such a young age? And why can't you just be mommy, letting me live there for a while?

What will you think if I actually do bring in that chair? Can I trust you if I bring it in? I hate this.