this morning I am getting bored with my usual stuff...
I walked some ...had a cup of coffee...
now I am thinking about the three things I love---coffee/alcohol/valium...
I thought I need a valium...then I thought I don't need a valium...I want a valium..
and I want some wine and some more coffee...I think I may have some
problem with addiction...and I also love sugar...but I am not thinking sugar...
I am thinking valium...to just feel calm for a little while....
so far I haven't taken anything but who knows how this will go today...