Hello splion: I see you're a 2+ year member. However this appears to be your first posted thread here on PC. So... welcome to active participation here on Psych Central. One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the Other Treatments forum. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/other-treatments/

I don't know as there is much of anything in particular I can offer with regard to your concern. I have to admit I'm not especially fond of sitting meditation. (I always fall asleep & wake up with a start as I'm toppling over.) Personally, in terms of meditation, I prefer walking meditation. And then, beyond that, I like just plain walking.

Here are links to 3 articles, from PC's archives, that discuss alternatives to meditation :

How to Manage Anxiety When Mindfulness Fails You

When Yoga, Meditation, and Diet Aren't Enough to Cure Depression

5 Ways to Calm Your Mind Without Meditation

I hope you're finding PC to be of benefit.