Thanks for sharing this with us. Even though people in the past have complimented my ability to relate to others, including women there have been times, especially recently in my dating blunders that I have felt the same way. I hope that you take at least a small grain of hope knowing that you aren't alone in these feelings.

If it is possible to draw boundaries with the toxic relationships in your life you are probably referring to, please do that as soon as possible. It is totally fine to take some extra time to yourself apart from problematic spouses, partner, etc, in order to regroup. Hopefully this can weed out some of the people in your life that have some of the negative traits that you want to avoid.