I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Fuzzybear! You're NOT useless and you're ALREADY ENOUGH the way you are! You' always were and you don't need to change to meet other people's standards! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! I completely agree with what all the other wise, wonderful people and posters on this thread have already wisely said better than I ever could! You've been given lots of great, wise, wonderful advice on this thread! I'd suggest to follow it as much as you can if you want to! Please remember to be kind to yourself because YOU DESERVE IT! YOU'RE AWESOME just the way you are right now and you don't need to change just to meet other people's standards! I completely agree with you when you say that you don't care about who hates you! Life is too precious and too short after all! We don't need more toxic people in our lives! We need to surround ourselves ONLY with people who will truly love us for who we truly are! You ONLY deserve the BEST, Fuzzybear! Don't ever ask for anything LESS! You deserve to be loved and to be respected just like everyone else does! You deserve to get better and to feel good! You deserve to live an happy, fulfilling life! You deserve ALL OF THIS and MUCH, MUCH MORE! You're AWESOME! You're STRONG! You're a WARRIOR! I believe in you! We ALL believe in you! We're ALL rooting for you! We're ALL cheering you on! I hope you'll be able to believe in yourself as much as we ALL believe in you becaure YOU'RE AWESOME and YOU KNOW IT! We ALL know it! I'm sure you know that as well even if it's deep down! Please don't give up HOPE! Try to hang on AS MUCH AS YOU CAN! We all care about you here! We all love you here! Feel free to vent and write here as much as you need and want! You know we won't judge you! I promise you that I won't judge you! You're a STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Fuzzybear