I slept last night but I’m dropping/spilling everything. My husband says it’s because I’m exhausted. I’m in control of my thoughts today. I’m not agitated It’s not a need and I can tell myself that it’s a horrible idea. So everything is really mild as of right now. At least today. If I continue unable to sleep I’ll start my zyprexa prn. I’m taking ambien to often and I don’t want to get addicted, that’d be really ******. I’m thinking of “teaching” a class to help homeschoolers prepare for college/career planning. However I don’t want to hear all the excuses parents will give.