Thanks for taking the time to read my self assessment of my issues. It took me a while to realize there was a problem. I want to say to others out there that spending time alone is what helped me sort these things out & recognize them as problems. Usually I am so preoccupied with other things that I do not get that time to myself & therefore didn't have time to deal with any of it. Now that I have realized these are problems, many people have come to my aid to support & help me with other obligations so that I can make the time to deal with them. I have lost lots of friends because these issues made me a very hard person to get along with, but the few I have left are the best people I could imagine in my life. And yes, realizing the problem is there is the biggest step in treating it. I am looking for a therapist whom I feel is adequately able to help me. I am very hopeful for my future now, and that is a feeling I haven't felt for years.