I had a talk with my dad. He said its usually guys especially in the olden days that would pay most of the bills. Bf and i are having financial problems and he doesnt like that hes paying most of the bills right now. But i only get 1000 a month. He gets 1400 or around there. I only have so much money to pay so many bills.

He doesnt understand that. He thinks i still should be paying half n half for all PLUS all my personal bills like my car insurance and credit card in full. Those 2 alone are 240 a month.

Its very hard on us sometimes. Especially since we lack food most of the month too. We stay hungry every day.

Its hard on me. Hard on him. I chose to talk to my dad this time instead of my mom. It was much better. And my dad actually talked to me this time. My mom wouldve just berated me “oh why arent u doing this and that? Work harder, get a job, take care of your health”. Etc! But its not that simple. She doesnt get it worth crap. IM TRYING to goto therapy so i CAN get a job. Im not even concerned about my health right now. I NEED money.

These delivery jobs....im so sick of them. Because i only get 2-3 order a day IF im lucky. Otherwise its usually just 1 order a day most days, at 8-9 dollars. Then i have to stay on call the rest of the day. Its no use. Itd be different if i was in a more populated area im sure tho.

Another thing is, im going to school soon. Bf knows that. He just says “oh its gonna be a whole nother year”. I didnt want to say this but i was thinking well geez, at least one of us needs a degree! And its true. Otherwise we will be doing this for the rest of our lives and getting nowhere.