Thanks so much everyone. No it’s not anyone here.

I’ve always felt like I’ve had to walk on eggshells in this world. Since cub hood.

If I don’t always muzzle myself often there is someone who takes an intense dislike to me. Other than occasionally expressing my opinion.. ok maybe more than occasionally sometimes, I don’t know what I’ve been doing wrong... this doesn’t happen every week or even every year or even every few years to an extreme degree ... some over time have hated me and made that obvious. Mostly at work irl but occasionally online too (not in this forum)

I wonder if the therapist who said I had a “paranoid part” was right...

Tbh I feel like he wasn’t honest with me at times. He was extremely mean and cruel at times and literally turned on a dime.

Again, what did I do to deserve him telling me how much he didn’t like me or care about me. And another therapist turned on me too but with this therapist I didn’t trust her and she got frustrated..