I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, seesaw! I agree with what unaluna has already wisely said better than I ever could! I'd suggest to listen to her if you can and want! She always gives such great advice to everyone! I do believe you have EVERY RIGHT to express your opinion and that you simply don't like being around some people and that you have every right to talk to them about all of this! I understand why it'd be hard for you to do all of this, but I'm really happy that you're taking all of these little steps to stand up for yourself and simply get out of an unpleasent group, situation, work environment or simply unpleasent people! It IS empowering and we DO need to take GREAT care of yourself! I'm really happy that you're taking all of these little giant steps! I can ensure you that you'll feel MUCH, MUCH better because of all of these little giant step that you're taking! Please keep fighting as much as you can and keep trying your best in life! That's all we humans can do after all and it's ALWAYS more than enough! I'm really happy that you're working on yourself and I'm SURE that you'll be able to see the benefits soon! Life is too precious and too short! We don't need toxic people in our lives! We need to surround ourselves only with people who will love us and respect us for who we truly are! Good on you for working on yourself and your boundaries! I'm struggling a lot with getting out of unpleasent environments or situations as well so I understand what you mean! I have much to learn from you! Keep fighting as much as you can! You're AWESOME! You're STRONG! You're A WARRIOR! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! We're all cheering you on! Believe in yourself! I hope you'll be able to believe in yourself the same way we all believe in you because YOU'RE AWESOME and YOU KNOW IT! We ALL know that! I'm sure you know that as well even if it's deep down! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! Remember that we're here for you if you need it! Feel free to PM me anytime! Let me know if I can do something to help you! Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, seesaw! :.sadhug: