Thank you so much for sharing some inspirational narrative.

I am worried about therapy, the level of preoccupation and emotional psychic pain it evokes. I have never felt so much dependence on a relationship, and have had a pretty normal relationship history despite childhood trauma. However, therapy kind of blew the walls off some organization in my mind, and I really depend on my therapist almost to organize experience with me now.

I can't imagine the courage it took for you to quit, and I get why it felt like a death and worse than the original trauma. Congratulations on the self care and self discovery.