I might have to call a help line tomorrow if I’m not feeling any better.
Possible trigger:
More SU ideation than my usual
I must keep my muzzle on
I must not think it’s ok to growl although my friends have said it’s ok to growl for years
I must be careful I’m not misunderstood especially in any check in threads, ie it’s better not to post at all as I’m not good enough
I must not attempt to resolve any misunderstandings privately
Because I am not a “good Paws” although I try to be a “good paws”
I must not speak to anyone irl
I must say I’m “ok” if anyone asks how I’m doing
I must accept I’m at the bottom of the “priority” for “help” irl bc I don’t deserve
Effective therapy

I must blame myself for feeling suicidal