I just keep struggling with this incident right now. I think because of the sort of gas-lighting (from my perspective it's gaslighting) and twisting my words and not listening or trying to understand at all what I was saying, it was basically a mind-f***. So I think I'm just processing the whole time I was there, including my decision to exit, and trying to validate myself that it's okay and I'm okay. Yeah, so this small group of people has a negative perception of me; well I have a pretty negative perception of them, that was reinforced multiple times even though I tried to give them a chance to be perceived differently. I need to stop giving people so many chances to hurt me. And I'm not trying to play a victim here. I know my role in it. But that doesn't change how I feel now and what I need to do to heal now.

And I'm sure they are all hurting too, either because of the situation or just because they are clearly hurting and therefore doing hurtful things to others, but fixing their hurt is not my responsibility.

Sorry, just trying to cope with this anger that's coming up again as I subconsciously try to deny my feelings.