So my husband wants me back on all my medication. ALL of it. He’s really mad CVS won’t help fix my prozac issue. He feels they are playing with my life. He’s being dramatic right now. Apparently I’m being a ***** and he thinks I’ll hurt myself. I just noticed all the sharp objects went missing (not looking for them just observant). He obviously doesn’t remember we almost broke up because I was uninterested in intimacy. He says he can’t sleep because I’m not sleeping and wants me not to take ambien because it’s addictive and I’m not sleep anyway. I’m tired just not sleeping. I’m staying in bed though. When did mischievous become a bad thing? I just think it’s withdraw. I want to cut out soda and see if that helps. I guess I’m scratching a lot, which is a sign of “bugs” plus apparently it looks odd as hell. I can learn to control my thoughts through CBT and I really don’t have to act on anything. Plus our car went up in smoke today. So I don’t want to make appointments. I don’t get into cars with strangers (taxis, uber, medicaid transport.) Plus I don’t take pills. So I will have to go back on 10’s. I wish I could talk to someone in real life not judgy like my ex T but not principle like pdoc. I don’t want just the STFU and take your meds or go to the hospital that won’t work long term for me. I need to find someone willing to work with the unmedicated me. I have yet to find one of these anti-meds therapist that are supposedly around. I took zyprexa last night and today felt like I was to weak to walk and wanted to pace at the same time.