I had my post op appointment yesterday @ Mass. Eye and Ear. The appointment went well. I met with the surgeon and one of his assistants, and everything looked good according to him. I couldn't really understand the assistant, as she had a VERY posh British accent and spoke fast. (I don't know why I can't understand British accents.) So I hope I didn't miss anything important. I didn't want to offend her by saying I couldn't understand her accent, but I probably should've politely asked her to reiterate what she said.

I'm afraid of what the bill is going to look like. I already owe something like $427 from a previous appt (i.e., not surgery) because my insurance picked up only part of the bill. Like 60% ish of the bill. I have NO idea why they didn't cover all of it since everything was considered medically necessary. It was considered "in network," too. And they covered all previous appts, so I don't get it.

But anyway, I paid for a top doctor, which is why I'm afraid of the bill. (Mass. Eye and Ear is part of Mass. General Hospital, which is ranked #4 in the U.S. and #6 in the world.) I wasn't going to settle for less, though, because I tried a bunch of specialists and they all failed me. And the other ENT doctors I saw were inconsistent in their "findings" as to what was wrong with me. So, I said f*** it and went with a top doctor. I'd rather have a top doctor do surgery on me than mess around trying to find someone at a decent price who won't f*** me up.

Otherwise, still depressed a bit. Been depressed for a while now. The Lexapro increase really f***ed with me, and even though I'm depressed now after reducing the dose, I'm better off not feeling wound up and restless.