Are you in therapy? If not, I highly recommend seeing a professional counselor. That’s a lot of issues you laid out, eating disorder, self- harm and attention seeking. It seems you are screaming for help by faking things and wanting ppl to worry about you and care about you.

Only a professional can work with you on resolving your attention seeking behaviors and all the rest. It’s going to take time to work through each of these issues. And patience.

But you deserve to live a happy and healthy life, and you need to get healthy yourself. Right now, you’re not healthy. There is nothing wrong with that, we all here have mental health issues that need working on. It’s par for the course. HUGS and I wish you all the best!