Damn...heartbreaking to watch someone get old.
Had a nice day with Gram. Started off rough...tears, missing phone...whole 9 yards. Get through that...she tells me some stories that don’t exactly seem based on reality but that’s cool. She earned it. She’s ninety****ingfour ya know. Finish eating, go for a ride by the ocean, go home. I sat at her kitchen table for 6 & 1/2 hours. Thankfully my niece came by too so we had someone to share the convo with.
As the day went on gram got better. It seems like a lot of her most serious confusion comes during times she feels a lot of pressure. Like getting ready to go out, misplacing something, etc.
just kind of sad. I never thought she’d get old. She retired at freaking 90! To spend more time with the dog lol. She drove until...well let’s just say far too long given her macular degeneration dx. I don’t know. She’s just always seemed “untouchable” to me. Today she was old and it hit me...finally.
Funny how we stick our heads in the sand about stuff like that. I remember when my mom was sick. I sat everyone down and told them word for word what the doc told us when asked prognosis. “Late term advanced stage aggressive and terminal adenocarcinoma. We cannot cure you...we can treat your symptoms. We can’t give you quantity but we will try to give you quality”.
Okay so they were SHOCKED when she “suddenly” died. Couldn’t understand why I didn’t tell them. **** me. You morons.