Hello everyone I really don't even know where to start honestly. I've failed with updating; I've been active in chat so I really have no excuse for not updating my forum friends. Other then I've been dealing with a lot emotionally and physically. I don't feel the best physically I feel very tired and run down. My heart rate also varies but what I've been seeing isn't going to impress the Cardio. So probably more biweekly visits that I really don't want. I just want to tie this issue into a pretty little bow. Sadly I don't see that happening; I am probably back to biweekly visits for the foreseeable future.
In regards to M's surgery which was last Wednesday; he got released that Sunday. Monday he started Physical Therapy three times a week. He's doing alright in terms of things all things considered. He sees the doc again this week for a follow-up. He's doing alright pain wise; I think he's starting to become bored.
This week I also lost a very dear animal. She was the families cat; she died at the old age of 17. So that was also news I wasn't expecting. We lost the family dog this time last year; so both of my childhood pets are gone; which feels odd to me. I knew I am getting older and changing but it's odd to think about. Granted ever since I moved in December it's just been me and kitty; but it feels oddly strange that both of my childhood pets die less than a year apart.
This is also the month I got diagnosed with anxiety/depression so I am dealing with the feelings of finally having this condition a year; plus it brings flashbacks of things. I am trying to overcome and think of my Bachelor graduation coming up in May. That degree will mean a lot to me. I was sick the last semester before this one and fought to be happy; and to think of what this degree will do for me career-wise.
I just kind of feel all over the place lately. With my emotions and physical health. This month was very hard for me last year; and while I know some of those symptoms can be traced back to my Cardiac issue. I know I should be happy with everything I have overcome the past year with my health and mental health.
I really have been at a loss for words lately with everything that's happened.
I apologize for not updating you guys; I know a large chunk of you have probably been worried with the my lack of updates or time in the forums.
Hugs to everyone 
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Generalized Anxiety Disorder
Depression
Symptoms of PTSD
Trintellix 10mg once daily
Buspar 10mg three times daily
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