Wildflowerchild, I can relate. And I never really thought I would (used to not even be able to gain weight). Never so much, and very little self-control. Anyhow, yeah.


But I did pick up a couple things the other day. There is a little event tonight that I thought I'd put a little effort into. Then totally couldn't decide which to wear...


I'm trying to get in a festive mood for it, but it seems life is not finished taking away good things. Just got an email that my favorite MeetUp group is on the very precipice of ending (they charge considerable fees to host, that apparently just went up). Unless someone steps forward, but we all know how rare that is.


WTF, universe?! First the social services help goes away (which meant, you know, I could actually GET medical and psych w/o worrying how I'd be able to pay. Same with eating.) Then the internship, now this! (And worst of all is something coming that I'm not supposed to know about. It's not for sure, but I've got a feeling of dread that it will. (That my roommate, who I adore, might be moving out)). Too much loss!!


So, right now I'm pretty upset. Trying to pull out of it. I was even thinking I'd get up the nerve to dance tonight (it's been a long time -- in public anyway...), but it's a little hard to imagine now. This stuff is really dragging me down.


Will try like hell to push through...

First order of business -- stop crying.