I do sometimes push the therapist away, but for different reasons than you. Sure, sometimes I am annoying, but I don't feel the need to save the therapist. She can fend for herself. I just have my own boundaries, and I want the therapist to "stay back," as SD would say.

It amuses me to think of you ignoring their attempts to make you laugh. Love it.

I'm not sure why you think another break would be good when it sounds like you're also identifying avoidance as a problematic behavior in your life. I have no issue with breaks, but if you're doing it with Baby T because you feel like he's wasting his time on you, that seems like an illogical reason. If you're doing it with T3 because you think he's trying to "replace" your T, that's also completely ridiculous, which you know.

I don't know what would be best for you, but I am confused about why you think a break would be helpful. I think the reason it's popped into your head that it might even be helpful is because you know it will relieve some emotional discomfort due to the issues you mentioned. However, this is not a therapy-isolated issue, so it seems like it might be something to work on instead of indulge in, if you can bring yourself to do that.