"Even if I just get a few things done daily, it will add up. Then the apartment won't be in chaos. Also, I can sleep at night without disturbance. I will feel better day by day. Then I can see what I need to do next.

Thank you all for supporting me. Two relatives called me this morning, which I appreciate. One was a sister I rarely hear from. She was nice and the call was heart-warming.

My plan: spend most of the day catching up on what I need to do. Visit him evenings. Then sleep. I have a lot at home to catch up on. It will take days and days. Meanwhile, he will stay put. When he insists on coming home, I'll say "Not yet." and I'll stick to that."

Good plan!!!!! Smart woman!
It's tough fighting your way out of total exhaustion. I'm glad that relatives and his family are on your side too.