This morning I found myself feeling the best I've felt in ages. When I visited him last night, we kind of got into it. I was showing him things on social media . . . facebook messages from his far away family and acquaintances. He said "You waste too much time with that kind of stuf. I' ll bet you're getting nothing done. That apartment is probably a mess."

I told him he constantly demoralized me, and I said good night and left. That felt like a relief . . . to walk away from his constantly negative appraisals of whatever I'm doing.

Actually I pleased with how much order I restored at home. Today I feel very good that I'm on my way to being organized again. I set up my "pill minder box" with meds I take, which mean I won't be skipping my thyroid med and various other prescriptions that I need to be compliant with. A friend called me This morn and we made a dinner date for next weekend. It felt so good to be able to plan a thing like that. I am getting into a very much improved state of mind. I don't like to blame others for my tendency to get disorganized under stress, but I have to say it seems so much easier to focus and attend to things without this man constantly nudging me and constantly needing my attention. I feel so much better now. Meanwhile he's doing quite well at the nursing home.